She Is Me
Reminding myself of worth. Reminding myself of value. Reminding myself of the moments that are approaching and the ones not yet in view. I’m struggling to listen. I’m struggling to believe. I’m flailing and wiggling. I remind myself to breathe. I remind myself that storms always end. I feel distant and remote. An isolation of my being, an absence of who she was. I struggle to believe. I’m sitting and waiting. I continue to breathe.
I know she is growing, shifting and sifting her way through places of pain with the hopes and prayers that her story reaches the places her mind has created; the ones with new and beautiful rhythms during a time she believes she remembers. In the moment she’s in, she rebuilds, reconnects, refuels and refuses to stop believing in the possibilities created from impossibilities. She carries me on towards the light and the warmth. She pushes me towards the spaces of healing and moments that are waiting. She refuses to hide for too long, even when it feels unfamiliar or challenging.
She fears the spaces that are waiting because she knows its where she grows, she senses the changes and fears the possibilities. She remembers a familiar feeling and begins to press forward with all she has. The words that are spoken and unspoken continue to ripple through her mind with an unwavering determination of being noticed, heard and accepted. There are moments in time when she whispers to herself with reminders of love, with reminders of appreciation, with the reminders of how far she has come and the pride that creates. She is finding her way, creating her path and seeing her light.
Her whispers keep me steady on the path. Her reminders calm my being and her curiosity leads me towards the places I’m meant to be. I remember to listen. I work towards calm. I breathe into each moment and remain still within my chaos. She is me and I am her and together we move to where we’re going with compassion and grace. Remaining, breathing, and allowing. Learning, discovering and remembering. I am honored to carry her within me and remain with her always. She is me and I am her.
